Posted at » 6:51:00 PM
Saturday, November 28, 2009
Haha, honestly~ I've opened this new posting browser for 3 times in 3 days and this is the fourth time... FINALLY, I manage to put myself infront of my laptop and get down to business!
I would like to blog about my academics but I simply can't say a word till the results are released... don't think it went well at all~ this is one of the reasons why I'm demotivated to write anything, or even do anything~ the 12th, the 12th, 12th... How can my holiday start to feel like one if I have a freaking huge rock hanging upon my heart?
So now, I would simply blog about the past few months! :) I'll leave a proper academic posting to when I receive the results- seriously, this feels really heavy.
RIGHT!
haha~ honestly, for the past months ever since my June holidays, there are 2 things that was on my mind the entire time- Studies & Relationships.
I did consider starting a relationship again.
2 people were on my mind.
1 of the 2 made me realise the worth of the other.
How important is the value of faithfulness and paitence?
I'm really, really lucky to have you.
This time round, it feels like a new relationship even though it was a patch up.
Haven't stay in close contact for 8 months or so, haven't seen her for 1 year +, and I realise that in 8 months , alot of things can change- from the way one talks right down to the way she thinks.
Sigh... it is a mission really... haha~ I've to constantly fight with myself and tell myself that "She is not the same person that you last seen le! Accept it! You made the choice then and now You have to bear the consequences."
2 months had passed ever since she accepted me and finally... I can feel that we are in the same frequency le! :) I'm really happy~~~~~~~~~~ real happy!
So, from one thing leads to another~ I've decided to travel back to see her.
All expenses are from my savings and I mean everything.
It was sudden, but it isn't random.
To think about it logically, how can I possibly let her wait for me for 4 years without seeing each other? It will be too selfish of me, to expect her to wait unconditionally. Thus this trip, I'll be going back to see her, to see if she is still who I think she is, and for her to decide whether I'm still the right person for her.
Truth is... when I graduate, I'll be 26 if everything goes smoothly.
I'll be going back to Singapore to work as a Engineer till she graduate from Uni and I'll be hoping to bring her back to South Africa or to Australia. To us, we've agreeded that Singapore isn't really a great place to live.
And this is from my experience of staying here in South Africa and staying there in Singapore for 3 years. I might write another blog entry about what I think about living in Singapore and living abroad.
Even though my Engineering degree is internationally regconised including all the other countries that signed the Washington Accord, I believe to look for a job in Singapore will be really tough, especially if I'm a fresh grad with no field experience at all.
When that happens, I'll try Australia- which I've heard they normally only hire overseas employees with at least a few years of experience. If both Singapore and Australia aren't a option, I'll have to come back to South Africa to work, gain the required experience.
And thus, in conclusion... we aren't going to stay in Singapore if we going to start a family in the future. At least, this is how I feel.
Haha~ I told mum about how I feel towards life in Singapore because she is considering moving back to Singapore, she said " You are like a fish that have been swimming in the wide ocean, you can't get used to the small tank anymore"
My word, it totally hit the spot.
So, I'm going back~ and we'll see each other, I'll meet her parents and awaiting 'judgement' and some decision making and planning :) I'm alittle selfish in the sense is that , once I see something good, I'll hold on to it and make it mine.
This trip is a important one.
Know why I'm playing this song?
Haha~ recently, my world have been turned upside down because of this!!
MC HotDog Feat. 马念先- 我爱Yes Girl
* 想要替她放松心情 她說我不解風情
說笑話逗她開心 她說我在攻擊
我的她 突然變的不可愛了
天殺的 我在想到底是什麽害的
她半夜睡不著覺 又有點頭痛 提不起勁不想參加任何活動
好像這裏也在痛 噢 那裏也在痛 噢
她不知所措 她的所作所謂開始變的善變
仿佛憂郁在蔓延 猶豫又不決 而體重開始變肥
而我掃到了這個臺風尾 她的脾氣搞的我就快要崩潰
原來有種東西 它叫做Mc
PMS 是經前癥候群
PMDD 是它的嚴重級
原來是她Mc要來了 噢 我真遜
沒了經前癥候群的女孩
You are my yes girl You are my yes girl
想盡辦法想要逗你笑開懷
You are my yes girl You are my girl，girl, girl
* 一切是這麽美好 就像沒了煩惱
她散發出來的是 自信的味道
她回到了窈窕淑女 君子好求
她現在身材就是像一個好球 strike
她的脾氣不在那麽壞 原來沒有經前癥候群是那麽可愛
什麽都答應她right? right...
永遠不想和她說 bye bye...
沒有PMS 她是我的天使
沒有PMDD 她是我的天心 就連天使都說我偏心
想要當她的Yes man 就懂得先機
看著我的眼睛 仿佛堅定的說聲Yes
就是喜歡你現在這樣沒有架子
談笑風生打開了話匣子
You are my yes girl yes girl!
沒了經前癥候群的女孩
You are my yes girl You are my yes girl
想盡辦法想要逗你笑開懷
You are my yes girl You are my girl，girl girl
* 原來一切都是Mc 要來所惹的禍
說著說著 那到底該怎麽做
這個MC 不是Mc HotDog
當它來的時候 女孩子難以捉摸
My yes girl 就是那麽簡單
回到美好的生活 那麽簡單
沒有經前癥候群 是那麽簡單
你可以問醫生 就是那麽簡單
吃顆新型小丸子 那麽簡單 <----------------NO!NO!NO! Extremely bad choice.
搞定你的荷爾蒙 那麽簡單
多休息多運動 那麽簡單
練練瑜伽術 可別把腿折斷 沒了經前癥候群的女孩
You are my yes girl You are my yes girl
想盡辦法想要逗你笑開懷
You are my yes girl You are my girl，girl girl ......
aiyaya...
我/
Peter
A.D 1986 -
Adores
Life itself
Always glad to be alive and well. ^_^
DETESTS
Sickness & Death itself
It would be... meaningless. -_-'''
S pirit sings inside
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